Up and away, I'll take you with me

Trust me when I say that I couldn't have had a better friend than you. You're everything I could ask for and more, and when you achieve something, I'm always insanely happy and proud of you. I am, and I always will be.

It's weird, isn't it? haha! We've never been the normal kind of best friends. I mean, we talk about things that I can't talk to anyone else about, yet we never talk about how we're really hanging on. But then again, I thing it's because whenever I hang with you, my mind is taken off of all that stuff. I actually feel happy when you're around. So just by sending me a text makes my day. To know that you know.. Don't think that you're not here for me, because you are. More than anyone else. You & music are the only things that makes me think of something else, makes me feel alive and that things are okay.

I know that I can talk to you, but I just don't know what to say. I mean, how do you even start?
"Hey. I want to die.I'm not okay, I'm never truly okay."
I don't know.. Besides, I forget about these things when I'm around you, 'cause you know me so well, you're yourself and that makes me feel so good. And I can be myself around you. I don't have to fake anything, and that's such a relief!
I mean, I don't think I've ever faked a smile in front of you. Because I don't have to. 'Cause you're the bestest mate I could ever ask for. And I've always thought that it's been you and me against the world, and that it'll always be this way. And somehow this comforts me. To know that no matter what you're here for me, and I'm here for you. That you know my darkest secrets, although I've never told you directly.

But then I think about how you know what it's like. And that thought is enough to get me down, because you are such a wonderful person. You deserve all the happiness in the world, and I hate to know that you have these feelings and thoughts too. That you think you're not good enough, screwed up, that you're nothing. Because in reality you are everything to me. You're what keeps me sane. You're my rock. And I love you, man.

I'll tell you one day, I just have to figure out how to start.

So you don't really have to do anything special to help me, just do what you've always done; be my friend. My best friend. My soulmate.
You just get me, and you get my crazy antics.

Us against the world, man. Us against the world.

[Save you tonight - One Direction]


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